Planet AJ | Part 2

We continue her story with part 2 of Planet AJ

Transcript

SPEAKER_02 0:00

Hey! Got the situated situated.

SPEAKER_00 0:08

Welcome to More Than Glitter, Voices Unheard, a podcast where the stories shimmer brighter than the stage lights. I'm your host, Mariah Edwards, and I invite you to join me on a journey into the lives of those whose voices are as captivating as their performances. Here in R Safe Space, we go beyond the glitter and glam. We sit down with dancers from all walks of life, uncovering the stories behind the sparkle. This isn't just a show about strippers, it's about the person beneath the persona. Today we sit down with AJ, also known as Planet AJ TV on social media. This is part two of her story. So if you haven't already, go listen to part one first. How does your family feel about you dancing?

SPEAKER_02 0:55

My brother's opinion is probably the only person. I mean, I don't really care about anybody's opinion, but the fact that I have my brother's support makes me feel better about the situation. Like he has my back. If I need him to like in a second, he would be there for me. So it's nice having that. And it's nice having him being like, I trust you enough that you're smart enough to get yourself out of a situation, or rather than to put yourself in a situation type deal. But the family, you know, I don't think anybody grows up and is like, oh, I want my daughter to be a sex worker, if you put it plain and simple like that. But then when you go deep down into it, I guess in the way that I know that how I dance and the way I conduct business, I think, I mean, I'm not against how anybody does or makes their money. I think more power to you. I'm just saying for myself, for the way that my parent, my family thinks about it, they're thinking the most extreme.

SPEAKER_00 1:59

Yeah, most people do.

SPEAKER_02 2:01

Even when they come and ask me questions, sometimes I'm like, I don't really have an answer for you because I don't know about that lifestyle. I'm not walking the street. I'm so far I've worked at very nice pristine clubs at our the security, are very much on our side, what we say goes. If I didn't want somebody to touch me at all, I could have that and it would be totally fine and allowed. Um I think I've been very lucky with that. How would you describe most customers? I have met the most kind, wonderful uh customers throughout the years. Funny, intelligent. So many people come from so many different walks of life. Not everybody's that merry guy with you know hiding underneath the belt. And it's like some people are going in there, they just want to have fun. The amount of times I've been in rooms or after parties where they're like, you don't even gotta get undressed, just hang out with me. And I think a lot of times squares don't understand that people really pay for just good company, you know, a beautiful woman with an intelligent mind who keeps herself well put together, will never cause drama, will never raise her voice in public, you know, won't won't embarrass you. Because people come from so many different walks of life and grow up differently.

SPEAKER_00 3:22

And yeah, it's we all want to be loved at the end of the day. That's it. That's all every human being and every living creature just wants love at the end of the day. Yeah, that's all we want.

SPEAKER_02 3:34

To be loved and to be understood and loved for like who we are and the no judgment, and that's what a lot of these customers get when they're being with us is a judgment-free zone. Like, oh, that's cool, that's awesome, because we don't really have a tie with you. We don't have a full emotional, emotional connection to you where, oh no, you shouldn't do that, you shouldn't do this. You know, it's more like, yeah, man, live your life. Do that, go through that's so cool. You travel so much, you know.

SPEAKER_00 4:06

Like, what is the craziest thing that a customer has wanted you to do in a private room?

SPEAKER_02 4:11

This one just recently happened, and it was this man had already been in there for hours. He had been through a couple girls who could not handle what he was wanting. He fully, he fully wanted to be dominated. I mean, full forced heel kick to the nuts, whipping him to the point of breaking skin, um, walking around like a dog, sitting on him as a chair. It was that point. And this certain man, he's a business finance. He has control out of every aspect of his life. He has a fiance that he says that she has no idea about this part of him, but the way that we beat his ass consensually, there's no way she's not gonna notice. Like, I there was one point I got nervous. I actually had to, I got a video of him like consenting of it because I was like, Is your it was I'm not gonna get charged with it? No, no, no, no. It was very intense, and I'm uh empath and I feel everything. So then when my friend was just going to town on him, I was like, like, I had to leave the room at one point. It was it was that intense. I had never seen something like it before. But she's he she's he says that she doesn't know about it, but he does this like once every couple months, come to the club, spend buco money, and get that done and then go back to his normal life. And that and he comes to us because we're not judging. No, his fiance would never in a million years, she would look at him differently. She would totally, you know, think of him less of a man, but when really that's not we're role-playing at this point. We're taking you out of your real life and we're going into fantasy playland. That's what the club is for. It's for fantasy, it's for play, it's for that whole aspect of it.

SPEAKER_00 6:10

Yeah, me and a dancer that we know sold a room. We got in there and we're just dancing and laughing and doing our thing, right? And he's like, I just want you guys to slap the fuck out of me. And we're like, you know, he's like, No, I'm serious, please. I just want you to just slap me. And so we looked at each other and we're like, okay, and I slapped him, and you know, I'm not a physical person at all, like I just don't know. I slapped the shit out of him, and I was like, right after, I was like, Because I was so shocked that I did that, and I felt so bad. I'm like, I'm sorry, and he's like, No, I love it. And so we literally spent that whole hour, me and her taking turns, slapping the shit out of her. I mean him, and plot twists, yeah, slapping the shit out of him, and we both kept saying sorry right after every time we slept. That's the amount of men that wants to be dominated is insane.

SPEAKER_02 7:24

Yeah, the domination is getting to an more all-time high, wanting anal play on them is on them, on them. They all want anal play. Yeah, it's such not a taboo thing anymore. They're just like, Yeah, you want to play with my asshole?

SPEAKER_00 7:42

And I'm like, But I don't think that they would ever tell their loved ones this. They come to us and talk about their like deep desires, right? Because it's easier to tell, you know, a sex worker, like, oh, I want my butthole fucked, like ram it, like, than it is to be like, hey, my wife, that's like literally on the PT. What is it? PTA meetings.

SPEAKER_02 8:04

Yeah, like yeah, literally PTA meetings, telling her to do it.

SPEAKER_00 8:10

I believe partners need to be more open with each other about their wants and desires, but people aren't because they fear judgment.

SPEAKER_02 8:18

I think a lot of people also people are gonna get mad at this, but people get caught up in the whole marriage thing, like, oh, we've been together this long. It's time to go about that, you know, and it's really a lot of people aren't really meant for each other and they just fall in with each other. That's why there's such a disconnect, and then marriages are at an all-time high, and then people end up leaving them, and then hopefully end up finding themselves and then getting into the groove. You see, so many marriages, they end up their spouse, ends up, turns out that they were gay the whole time or felt like they were trapped in the wrong body. That happens so often nowadays, where people need to be more open and honest, like it's mandatory, like lie detector on your spouse. Let's figure this out, babe. Like something needs to be done. People need to stop caring so much about what other people perceive and think. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 9:19

As a dancer, how do you think the world views us?

SPEAKER_02 9:22

I feel like they view us if it's in the same, it's in the same thing. They're like disgusted with us. How could you judging us? But at the same time, how are you doing it? Like, when when somebody finds out that I'm a dancer, if I let that information out, oh, it's a hundred questions, back to back to back, and now I'm the clown on the pedestal, you know, telling my stories, or I've taken that power back where I don't sit and talk to people about it that don't deserve it, or it's just so unnecessary because you don't deserve to know everything. Not everybody deserves to know or understand because when they go and take with it and twist with it into their own narrative. But I think it's an overall sense that they they just don't like us, they don't value us, they don't see us as human individuals. I know I got into an altercation with a customer where it was like a life or death situation, and I didn't go to the hospital when I should have because it was more of the fact I first of all had somebody in my ear, but also it was the fear of going to the hospital, dealing with the cops. Now the cops know my name, now they know where I live, now they're gonna sit and harass me, they know where I work, like they know what time I get off and where we live. The police are known to, you know, not be treating sex workers all the greatest. And from what I know, a lot of women who are sex workers, a lot of women in general, get raped underneath the hands of the law when they get arrested. So to them, I'm a whore, I'm a slut, you know, an object, just an object. It automatically switches to that, you know. Um, once I say what I do, it's automatic. Say people try to touch me, it's weird. People think that they can touch you once they find out your job, or they think, oh, I can get her. It's like, no, back to gross.

SPEAKER_00 11:29

Off the clock. If anything, we're like, I feel like at least us, I feel like we're even harder to get because of the fact that we're dancers.

SPEAKER_02 11:40

Yeah, you have to be something, you have to catch my eye in something special and something like that because we see hundreds of men a month that come walking in and out of that club.

SPEAKER_00 11:53

Telling us how amazing we are, how pretty we are, we're so great. Oh my gosh, you're so perfect. Those words don't mean anything to me.

SPEAKER_02 12:04

I'm like, alright. Like, like, since I'm so perfect and you're so obsessed with me, transfer your bank account.

unknown 12:19

Literally.

SPEAKER_02 12:20

Prove it. Oh, I like to say prove it now. I'm like, prove it.

SPEAKER_00 12:24

Yeah, as soon as the world knows that you're a dancer, I physically feel them look like their view of me changes drastically in that second. To be honest, it's really, really difficult for me. I went to a bank to open up a bank account, and when they asked me, like, oh, what do you do for a living? And I said it, they made me feel so low. I literally left crying and didn't even ever open that bank account because of how like how he talked to me afterwards. He was so rude and disrespectful, and just fuck that bank.

SPEAKER_02 13:02

Yeah, and that's so crazy because I mean, we shouldn't be treated like that in general, but the way that I know that you walk, talk, carry yourself is so elegant and so nice that like you're not in there wearing like definitely not, you're like probably fully covered up in a sweatsuit, hair on top of your head, glasses, probably not even on, even though they should be on since you're blind. But literally, I know what look you went in there with. So it's like now that I said that I'm a dancer, all of a sudden it's not even going to work and catching Ubers back in the day, like that was absolutely hell. The harassment.

SPEAKER_00 13:49

Um, I feel like when I Uber to anywhere else, nobody fucking talks to me. As soon as I Uber to the strip club, oh, how are you? What are you doing tonight? Yada yada yada. Like literally ask, yes, asking me a thousand questions. And I'm like, I don't want to talk to you, I just want to go to work. Yeah, I don't like that. I literally put no no talking.

SPEAKER_02 14:18

I did that too. I did that too. They still talk though. Yeah, it's too much. I remember from Rhino one time. I would bet money on this that my lift driver was in the club that night. Like they were in the club, and then when I left, I catched a ride. Like waiting, like waiting, like got off the thing, and then was like, oh, this would probably be like because like you know, beardos think like that. And I thought he was drunk. I reported him for driving drunk because he was like swerving. I remember the story, and I just felt uncomfortable. And the way he was like looking in the rear view mirror and like talking to me, I was like, I like put my keys in my knuckles. I'm like, ready, ripping out hair follicles, putting it in his car. Like, you're gonna find my DNA. You're gonna find me just looking at no. I think that's the thing. I always I always look for my safety, every even Ubers and stuff getting in because I like look to see how the doors lock and stuff. Because I'm like, a lot of these people that drive around in the same city in the same area, they start knowing your route. It's pretty easy to rocket science.

SPEAKER_00 15:37

It's sad, it's super creepy. Thankfully, nothing bad has happened to me at the strip club. I've definitely like screamed at a few people for like smacking my ass when I walk by. That's the worst. Hell no. Who do you think you are putting your hands on me? And they're offended that we get offended. You wouldn't do that at a normal bar. You would never have a woman walk past you at a normal bar and slap her ass and think that was okay. Don't do it in a strip club.

SPEAKER_02 16:08

No, especially not in a strip club. Like, that's definitely one way to get beat up by a girl. Yeah, literally. I've literally wanted to put my hands on many customers before, being like, Yeah, this customer, he was being really handsy, but he was really drunk, and he kept on, he kept on like falling asleep. And then then he'd wake up and be sporadic. So I was like, I was like, I'm just gonna stand up and dance in front of him while he's asleep. So then when he'd wake up, I'd be like, ooh, yeah. But honestly, he needed to sleep that off. He did not need to be out on the floor, he needed to spend the time in there and pay.

SPEAKER_00 16:48

No, I love when they fall asleep. Fall asleep, baby. I'm getting paid while you're sleeping. How fucking perfect is that?

SPEAKER_01 16:57

Hands back, feet literally kicked up on top of their face, like toes and mouth, like yeah.

SPEAKER_00 17:05

What are some big dreams you have for the future?

SPEAKER_02 17:07

Big dreams now for the future. I wanna be able to, I want to reach a lot of people and to kind of help navigate a healthy lifestyle, how to navigate, being sober. I mean, I'm not gonna say I'm sober 100% of the time, but you know, I don't go out and drink anymore. I'm not drinking in the club. I might have one drink with a girlfriend once in a while now, but I have yet to do that in a couple months. So I want to just show people a different lifestyle, working out, eating healthy, simple, clean eating. You know, um, for so long, I had no idea what I wanted to do and no idea, like no vision. And this last year has just been more of a clear vision of everything that I've loved and everything I love about myself. I want to put out there. Cause I've done social media before of being the hot girl, the hot sex worker girl, and it's TikTok. My blue, it blew up for a bit, but guess what? It gets taken down just as quick as it blows up because of the algorithm and you know, the kind what content that you're putting out there. And I'm so tired of just being seen as a sex symbol, and you know, yes, I'm a beauty queen, and like everything like that. But it's like there's so many more layers and depth to me that I feel like if I can bring myself out to shine and grow my confidence from where it was, I think I can help others do that too. And yeah, there's just a lot of avenues that could go with it, but I just want to help teach and help. However, that looks, that's how I want it to be laid out.

SPEAKER_00 18:54

I love that so much. I think you'd do great at that.

SPEAKER_02 18:57

For girls who know me and know how I was. I think it's quite shocking. Um, I know I've gone to clubs, old old Rhino with all the old girls working there and not drinking or turning down drinks. I got for a long time like, oh, you're not the same. You're not drinking anymore. What's wrong with you? And you need to be strong enough to get over that hump of hearing those ugly, nasty comments. And once you find out that it's just like their own inner demon being jealous that you're doing something positive, you're like, oh, like it's like almost like a bad breath coming your way. That's literally how I see it now, like a fog.

SPEAKER_00 19:42

What is it like dating while you're a dancer?

SPEAKER_02 19:46

Dating is hard. I'll for myself, for the years that I was at Rhino, for like the eight-year years, that's how long the relationship was. I had what you would call like the boyfriend. He wasn't even pimping at anything, he was just the boyfriend that would take, take, take, take, take. That's technically a boyfriend pimp.

SPEAKER_00 20:09

A boyfriend pimp for all regular folks out there, it is when a dancer dates somebody who does not have a job, he will most likely pick her up from work and drop her off. You are essentially their sugar mama. Yeah. And a lot of dancers unfortunately have one.

SPEAKER_02 20:28

Yeah, because a lot of dancers they want what they think is a normal love. And they think if you're not a known pimp, then if you're a regular person, then you're like just a regular boyfriend. But let me tell you, them boyfriend pimps be the worst. Be the worst, so manipulative. I would stay home from work because why can't I stay home from work for an you're not about to go to work tonight? Why are you not going to work tonight? If I had the chance, you do have a chance to go to work, but you don't go to work. And he would literally be like that. And then I would get so angry. Oh my gosh. I would be in the club almost every night drinking and going crazy, you know, because fuck dude at home. He's mean to me, you know. He's not loving and caring. And I did that for so many years, pouring my love. Like, if I do this, he'll love me. If I give more, oh, when I give him this amount, he shows me love, and I will start to catch on to that. When I wouldn't send him money when I was in a different state, I wouldn't hear from him for days. I would send him some money. Oh, baby, I love you so much. I can't wait to see you, blah, blah, blah, blah. Blowing up my shit. And it's like, damn, the boyfriend pips me. Supposed to be bad. But since I, you know, ended that this last year, and I'm not gonna lie, I ended with literally nothing to show for it. I'm talking maybe, maybe 5,000. In my bank account because he had literally run me all the way dry. And if you ask any of my friends, the real baller players, I was hanging with those girls, making just as much money as them. I mean, I think one year I probably sent him close to a hundred thousand dollars when we were living in separate states, and that alone made me sick to my stomach. Now, dating, it's hard for me, and I haven't dated yet because first of all, I'm not ready. Second of all, deciphering real love and trick is really hard.

SPEAKER_00 22:36

Okay, for all you normal folks out there, a trick is what we call a man who spends money on a female.

SPEAKER_02 22:42

And getting your mindset out of the money aspect and being with somebody, you know, I'll never be with somebody who never doesn't work or doesn't have anything, you know. I'm gonna have that boundary. Like, you gotta have the same amount as me, if not more. I'm not dealing with somebody with less. When it comes down to it in dating, I won't even go out with somebody because I'm like, well, what am I getting out of it? Are you gonna throw me some money? And I don't even know what kind of opportunities or what type of people I could have met because of the fact that I only decipher if I like you based on how much money you're gonna give me what you have to give to me. Because at the end of the day, I know you want sex from me, and I could care less to give you sex or to get sex from you.

SPEAKER_00 23:25

So therefore, play it myself.

SPEAKER_02 23:27

Yeah, I'll get off six times in a row before you can get me off, baby. And you coming quick and then being like, Oh, you're just so bad. Like, no, you have erectile dysfunction. Get the fuck away from me. I know that there's somebody out there for me. I know that I'm when I see him, it's gonna click and it's gonna be there. I need to at this moment in time learn to be strong enough within myself, learn my boundaries, learn my placement. And I also need to start going out and dating for fun a little bit here and there to, you know, just to get out there and to meet different people, different walks of life, and learn new things. I'm in a whole new state, whole new city, don't know anybody, don't know anything. And I need to, instead of making everything about money, trying to make it more about my values and where that lies into, you know, my values will never lie alongside a loser's ever again. So knowing and trusting myself in that is a big step, and it's it's hard to do. Like, I will never be ashamed of my past of dancing or anything like that. I think about it as when I'm an old lady someday, and I think about I'm gonna tell the best stories, man. Like, that's that's all I think about is like this is gonna be so cool. And then sometimes when I get sad about my life, I've had to put it into perspective and look at the big scheme of things and be like, wow, we're some badass bitches. Like the things that we've done, seen, accomplished, hear, do, be around. Like, that's why I have never cared about my the family aspect of it because those people couldn't even come, you can't even get into the club, you know? Like, you can't, you're not on that level, and it's so exciting though, but it's definitely not for the week. I've never done that ever. I've never gone out and like dated, and like I have any type of relationship I've gotten into, it was all or nothing. And I told myself after this last relationship, no, it's not gonna be like that. I'm getting, it's gonna be courted. You're gonna have to ask me to literally be your girlfriend, like in a way, like I deserve certain things because I give so much love, and I know what type of love. I can't have enough love to give a man a hundred thousand dollars just not even seeing him a whole year. That's crazy.

SPEAKER_01 26:03

I wiped his own ass, okay? Imagine the love that I have, just whatever.

SPEAKER_02 26:09

Yeah, maybe that maybe I'll start dating, it'll be like a series or something on.

SPEAKER_00 26:14

Now that you are in Arizona starting over, are you going to be as open about being a dancer?

SPEAKER_02 26:21

Yeah, I definitely am not going to be telling people out here that so far. I've been saying like a lifestyle coach. I just don't want to go down the dancing avenue with people. I haven't even put myself out there at all. I'm literally living in the prime area of all the different restaurants and bars, and I'm like, I don't know what to do or go. And I'm like, I don't want to put myself on like apps.

SPEAKER_00 26:45

But it might be fun, but I don't know how that works. I don't know how it works either. I don't know. I don't know how people like normal people live life, hence why I have a podcast.

SPEAKER_01 26:57

You gotta find out how people what do you do to live your life?

SPEAKER_00 27:01

What makes AJ the happiest?

SPEAKER_02 27:04

I'm happiest when I feel good all the way, obviously, around like mind, body, and soul. I'll say when I left Minnesota and even just left automatically, a huge weight and like thing came off of me. If you're in a place that you're not happy, it will drag down your soul more than you even know. It's like a huge magnet that you just feel like stuck to the ground almost. Like, I mean, coming out here being fully on my own. It's I have the ability to do anything I want every single day. What do I want to do? What does AJ like? And that's something that right now that's making me the happiest because I've for so long have been told what I like, how to like stuff. You know, I I've literally not liked things because I've heard my ex-ASI comment about it, or like I love dancing every type of interpretive dancing, stuff like that, and I'm gonna start bringing that back into my daily life because dancing was a big part of my life before actually stripping. Like real dancing and gymnastics was huge on it, but now I'm having the ability to do all that and put the work into myself and not have that negative, like, oh, that's weird, like judgment. So judgment and cutting off a lot of people who would have judgment, or if I felt drained after talking to them, or I'm like, oh, they text me again. You gotta cut off them people, and then like sooner or later, it's like you see the smile starts forming back to your face, you know. Like, I don't feel like I'm being pulled from every direction, and a lot of people spread themselves really too thin when they need to be more selfish, and being selfish, I've learned, is not a bad thing to certain extent, but it's not the way that we're talking about it.

SPEAKER_00 29:01

Uh how did you meet your ex? And did he know you were a dancer?

SPEAKER_02 29:05

Yeah, he knew I was a dancer from the start. I met him at a photo shoot that I was at, I was doing, and I was with one of my good friends at the time, and he knew her because he dated her friend at the time. So it was he was he was the little F boy, he pretty boy. Like, I remember when I went into this is actually a funny story. When I went into treatment, they had to sit us down and write down your perfect person, your person that you want to be with. When I tell you, I wrote him down to an exact T. Funny, I didn't want white guy, mix of any type of sort, you know what I'm saying? Got that buff, love to work out, tattoos, funny, everyone loved them. I did everything, such a facade on the outside. I did no actual inner work on that paper. And when I tell you, life gave me him, and I literally told him that before, but then I realized all the depths of stuff that I actually needed, the love, the care, the support, everything else wasn't there. And meeting him at that photo shoot, it was instant, like he liked me a lot. I would do nice things for him, and he'd be like, No one's cared about me like this before, blah, blah, blah. Like, I'm telling we met, and then a week later he moved in. It was, oh my God, I couldn't believe that we were together. And we, and then get this, we were together. And then by the third apartment we had together, I remember he was drunk one time and he was like, Yeah, I'm not scared. Tell people I got a girlfriend anymore. And I'm thinking, we're almost two years into this. What the are you talking about? Like, I was so taken back. There were so many signs, but I just like I was so comfortable. His toxicity had so much to do with my childhood, like that comfortability of like having the people please and stuff. Like, that was so comfortable to me. And then when me and him we got along, we had the same personality, same style, loved to smoke weed together. Like that man kept me very, very high. That whole relationship. Like, anytime anything, it was like, smoke this. So probably a red flag, too, but probably yeah, there's a lot of red flags that I just like missed over. Man, eight years later, that man still has done nothing to this day. I think about it and I kind of chuckle because I know he sits there and he's like, ah, that relationship, I miss it so much. And you know, and I don't think he realizes or will ever realize, because I'm not gonna tell him how much pain and how much trauma that relationship actually put on to me. And that's something that he'll never understand, he'll never get.

SPEAKER_01 32:03

You should have just left. You should have left a long time ago.

SPEAKER_02 32:07

No, narcissists have their way to finding their prey until you find your true own backbone and your own boundaries, they'll hunt you down, they sniff you out, they sniff when someone's been around a narcissist.

SPEAKER_00 32:22

They can they can tell. I also think that people who have narcissistic parents are drawn to narcissistic people because that's their normal, that's something they know.

SPEAKER_02 32:37

When I noticed tendencies of my ex that were reminding me of my own father, and it was the walking around on eggshells, oh, what's his temperament like stuff like that? I was like, girl, you about to marry your father, and that man is evil. The way I even was like, because he never wanted kids, because he already had a child. The way I would I would have was ready to give up my ovaries, like, yeah, I don't need a child, like willing to risk it all, you know, because love at the end of the day, I just want to be love, but I got a good group of friends that love me for me, and that feels better to me than any year I spent with him.

SPEAKER_00 33:22

I really believe that all you need in life, truly, is a strong group of girlfriends. It's so important.

SPEAKER_02 33:30

I just I don't know where I would be mentally. I probably, I honestly would be in that relationship still a hundred percent. I know if I wouldn't have been able to come over to your house and had that extra strength from you to just being like, I'm here for you. And love you, love you too. Fucking took four days for a breakup, literally messaged back once, like three words a day after I sent paragraphs.

SPEAKER_01 34:00

Like, oh like friends, look at those messages.

SPEAKER_02 34:04

What does that say to you? And I'm like, you're right, you're always right, Mariah.

SPEAKER_00 34:09

I know it's hard. Nobody listens to me, but it's okay.

SPEAKER_02 34:13

You're the tough love that everyone needs because not too many people get it, especially as adults. We kind of just let everything slide and go underneath the rug, and you're true, close people. I want my people to hold hold me accountable for my stuff.

SPEAKER_00 34:27

Like I think that's true friendship. At least that's what I see as true friendship. I feel like there's so many dancers that I see just shit faced trashed, and the fact that they even say, Oh, my best friend, my best friend's there all the time for me. Well, no, that's not your fucking best friend. All those people that watch you puking your guts out, falling on the floor every night, barely can walk, those are not your friends. Those are not your friends. They do not want to see you win. Your friend would shake you and be like, you're a hot mess. Figure your shit out. Yeah, get it together. And I hope somebody would do the same for me. And so that's why I'm so hard on people.

SPEAKER_02 35:16

Yeah, if I definitely saw you like that, I'd be like, like one day I'd be like, I'd be like, okay, let me pick you up and bring you somewhere safe. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 35:28

And then the next day I'd be like, okay, we need to really talk because this is making me sick looking at it.

SPEAKER_00 35:37

I have love for so many people. I don't even have to know them to have love for them. I I don't know what it happens to me at work. I'll just look at a girl and I just love them. I don't know why. I just see so much potential in them and I see what they could be, and they're good people that's just lost. I just want to save everyone.

SPEAKER_02 36:00

You probably will. Yeah, I girls need to start loving themselves more in the club because then the money would get better. Girls don't realize that we really have all the control. Like, do your thing, play your part, play it right, be healthy, mentally stable, and this could all go back to how it was a couple of years ago. But now everyone's just fiending for whatever they can get because of the times. Best definitely used to uh stab each other in the back over a couple hundred dollars. So that's weird to me because I never I'm never like that in the club. I'm like, let's all just do it.

SPEAKER_00 36:40

No, there's enough to get it go around. Like I've never been, I think that's why I get so irritated with girls because I've never been that girl to steal a customer or steal the spotlight of another dancer. My time will come, like God will give me what I need. You know, I just believe that everything happens for a reason. Like maybe I didn't get that guy, but you don't know what's happening in that room. She could be dealing with a loss, like she could be trying to get him to stop touching her vagina the whole time for an hour straight. And that's annoying. That's like the worst thing to deal with with a hands customer for an hour. And is that money worth it for me? No. Not anymore.

SPEAKER_02 37:27

It's not, it's not worth it to me to have that handsy customer. I'll tell them straight up, I'm not a rag doll. I'm not your doll. Put your hands to the side since you don't know how to act right. Like the tearing of the skin, the grabbing of it. It's like I am a human being.

SPEAKER_00 37:45

Like, somebody bit my nipple before, and I punched them. I punched them so hard in the face, I shocked myself. Like, who are you biting my nipples? Who does what are you doing?

SPEAKER_02 37:58

It's fucking like trying to go at it, and I'm just like, this is why your wife doesn't let you touch her. Do you grab? It's like that they when they grab, it's just like they like peeling off the skin. It's like, I'm like, oh my god, you're gonna literally rip my skin in half. It's not okay. Like, I can put up with a lot. It's a lot of having people think that we're dumber than what we are, too. It's a lot of people undermining it and us just being like, mm-hmm, yeah, you're right.

SPEAKER_00 38:33

Well, we just got them to drop $5,000 on us.

SPEAKER_02 38:36

Yeah. Like, yeah, we're stupid. Yeah, I'm the idiot, right? I need to go get a degree, right? In something. Like, I'm prison, pretty sure I can do a business marketing fucking seminar, a selling seminar.

SPEAKER_00 38:51

The truth is, we are great salespeople. Yeah. Like fucking fantastic. No, it's I love watching a girl sell a room.

SPEAKER_02 39:01

Yeah. Love it. And we tell you guys for selling a room, try to sell a room without using sex with an object on the table. Without saying that I'm going to blow you, fuck you, suck you. You literally tell them that you're not gonna give them a hand job. Tell them, yep, try to get sell a room without literally telling them, I'm not gonna jack you off, but baby.

SPEAKER_00 39:21

I'm not going to do nothing, but we're gonna sit, talk, and I'm gonna dance on you. That's it.

SPEAKER_02 39:26

I love when you're in the club and you you see that customer walk in and you're like, Yep, there's my money. That's mine. That's mine.

SPEAKER_01 39:33

That's my money that just walked into the club, and then it's just like bada bing, bada boom.

SPEAKER_00 39:42

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SPEAKER_02 40:06

Yeah, what makes me happy is happy. What makes me happiest is being happy.

SPEAKER_00 40:12

I feel like I need to blow up my nose.

SPEAKER_02 40:14

I would actually let you spin on my mouth and not take. Because I know you're such a clean person. So, like, I wouldn't even like lick your butthole. Don't take that as an offer, just letting you know. Or if I just stick my finger up your butt, I know for some reason it'd be like sparkling clean. I can literally see people going nuts already in the comment section. Like, do you let the water run over your butthole or do you scrub the inside of your pole?

SPEAKER_00 40:44

I love you. I love you. I love you more. I love you more.